Passenger Seat

listen to this while you read please!!
(Death Cab For Cutie~Passenger Seat. I put a link but it wouldn't show!! So youtube it please. PLEASE??)

So listening to a friend, I decided to add this pic to my blog. I began to think what can I possibly blog about in regards to this picture?! A truck load of thoughts hit me but nothing stuck to my honey. Then as I downloaded the picture and listened to Kings of Convenience it hit me.

You know how when you are a kid you looked out of the window from the backseat as you passed all the light poles? I used to pretend I was on top of them jumping from one to the next. I used to laugh imagining myself screaming up to the driver, "Slow Down!! I can't jump that fast." Now here I am. In the passenger seat. An adult. My children staring out of the back window. I can't help but want to scream," Where did it go? Is it lost? Can I please go back and try again? I don't think I did it right!" There was such a comfort and ease in that back seat. Life was a journey you were getting to go on. I didn't have to worry about the traffic, the red lights, the driving conditions.

Life is becoming like this car ride to me. Everything is passing. Quickly at that. I wanna slam on the brakes. But you can't just slam on the brakes, it doesn't work like that. I guess I should realize that it's not over. I'm still in the car. I'm still moving. I'm just in the passenger seat now.